Hey! Over here. It is not easy getting your attention and yes it is I, your higher self. The ethereal one watching over you. The small still voice murmuring truth in your ear, and stating that there is so much more to you than you know. Your glorious, highest self, charged and assured. Awaiting only the strike of a match.
Right, you say. Swap what you know of your world for some gauzy mystery holding the promise of.. what? Some great intent that the universe holds for you, an affirmation of an enriched life beyond measure? By all means, bring your doubts and your questions for they are necessary and fully expected. Just do not allow them to form a blockade.
What I say to you is that the call to reinvent yourself is within you as surely as you are fashioned of connective tissue and vital fluid. And together we can shape the greatest version of you. Someone you will come to love dearly and respect deeply. A soul of great substance and personal power that people will gravitate to, respond to, harbor great respect for – and generally not fuck with. Your radiation of both strength and vulnerability does not, in the main, invite conflict.
What awaits you are differing states of joy, peace and stillness in concert with an insightful, judicious knowledge of self and others. Not a perfect state mind you, but an existence contrary to what you know, and in the very best of ways. A movement from what you are to who you become, the utmost, preeminent version of you.
So prepare to question all that you know. And trust me, the universe will do this for you regardless. It falls on you then to discern between what you’ve been taught and believe to be true, to all that you will come to learn of yourself and the world at large. Make no mistake, this journey is challenging by design. You are meant to be tested in every way possible in order to forge this brave new world of yours.
In the process, you may just come to a realization that the goals you’ve set and the intentions you’ve carried out all these years through a grinding effort and will required to advance in this world, may no longer fill you. (But let me be clear, there can be great fun in financial wealth, toys and living well. There is absolutely nothing wrong with achievement, striving and enjoying the rewards of your efforts. But it is not the end-all, be-all, and it all represents just a glimpse of you). And with good honest reflection, you decide what rewards of the world add to the quality of your life. And doing some good with your money never hurts.
And know this. Your newly acquired realizations and self-knowledge will be learned, re-learned and ultimately earned. Because as your awareness grows your ego fights on, planting seeds of doubt and disruption and testing your resolve. Introducing you to concepts like ‘imposter syndrome,’ if you’re not already familiar with it.. What I speak of is a growth of consciousness, which is, make no mistake, your greater purpose on this earth. For consciousness is evolution and what we are designed for, built for.
So here is some of what consciousness looks like:
Honor who you are. Be mindful of the ways in which you speak to yourself and others. If it is harsh, soften it. If it is critical, be kinder.
Anticipate a most positive and productive humbling of sorts, a scrubbing away of hubris and folly.
Operate with integrity. Oye! It gets no bigger. When you experience a niggling (me again) that this choice you’re considering does not honor who you are, consider an alternative. Or, go through with it! Yet another disappointment and a dose of the bitters may be just the catalyst for change. In point of fact, the self-anger resulting from poor choices is often the very best of teachers. We simply remember the misery of hard lessons.
And let there be no mistake, self-anger is a driver of much of the physical and emotional violence of the world. When we are in it and unable to make sense of it, much less digest and work with it to allow for a slow dissolution, then we are in the deepest of shit. So I say, when self-anger does arise, treat it with great respect. Do not run from it. Experience its temper, but do not let it consume you. And most importantly, build a container for it to prevent a lashing out at others, for the results can be catastrophic. Because like everything else, it too shall pass. And next time, do your damnedest to make the different choice that keeps you out of its web.
And as an aside, just know that it does not belong with me either. So please refrain from messaging me with anything along the lines of:
“Dear Higher Self,
What the Fuck, and where might you be as I am in distress?!”
I stand with you, but remember always that you possess free will and my role is not to redirect you from your choices. Choices that carry pre-ordained lessons designed in many ways to break your outer crust in order to reach you, and ultimately enrich you. Angst, uncertainty, effort and a learned skill set comprise the exact and extraordinary lessons that this life demands in order to climb out of your predicaments. The lessons not forgotten. So I say, as you emerge fully appreciate who you’re becoming. A self-advocate and spiritual warrior of great skill. Someone of gratitude, humility and compassion for self and others.
Still doubt me? Entirely expected. So I say this to you, the next time I message you, even with something so elemental as to go back inside and check the house once more before you leave, do it and see what comes of it. Or, the friend, brother, mother or partner who utters something that niggles and bumps up against your consciousness, speak to it. Ask about their declaration, state that you have a strong feeling about it but don’t necessarily understand it yet. It may be something, or nothing. And yet you have heard my call in the moment and that is what is important. Trust your instrument of perception and I promise you, it will amaze, and it will serve you. It has and will always be with you. It seems that you just forgot to remember.
Avoid the terms “Always” and “Never.” As in: “I am Never going to understand why I keep choosing people that are so wrong for me!” A lot to unpack there, but start with the qualifier ‘never.’ With diligence and clear intent, gradually remove it from your vocabulary. Very soon you will find yourself about to exclaim it, before changing it up to something on the order of: “Yeah, I have a history of choosing these fucking people to get involved with, and here is yet one more of them sitting across from me. What then can I do differently this time that I will feel good about?” Pose this question and you have chosen you. Bear witness to your conscious observation and the possibility of a different course of action. Excellent new choices!
You may still hookup with the dipshit, but I will be with you at every turn, and you will likely hear my whisper. “You’ve unearthed another jaackaasss…. They are unworthy of yooooouuuuu…..” This time you are different, and so the outcome will differ. Witness the horsepower of consciousness at work.
And I say to you give. Give love, give your time and energy, your compassion, your insights and your skills. Share that compliment just there on the tip of your tongue, even through the resistance you may feel because why should you celebrate others when few (or none) celebrated you?! It is exactly what you are called to do. Call it your path of growth (just one of many).
Yes, this examined life can be perplexing as fuck. The questioning, the dearth of ready answers, the limbo. In the ante room of consciousness gripping a list of apprehensions. Dare I enter, what awaits me, and if I don’t dig the answers can I go back?
And I say this as well, as you add to yourself in the ways of integrity, honorability, living the truth, newfound joy and peace, strength you didn’t imagine you possessed, in this process you become the mountain. The weather will rage around you, scouring you, but you remain steadfast. As life continues to test you, you will feel the fortitude that you have built in your very marrow and know that you can handle anything that comes your way.
And what then do you have to lose?
